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may 12th? hmm its been awhile. suprised i still hav this thing up. does anyone even look at this? anyways...

life is wack. why cant i ever get to get anything the way i want it to be? i mean if anything, in the beginning ill get lucky and hav things running smoothly, but later on it goes to shit. i dont understand. life in general. is this a test? does everyone go through it? i realize that sometimes we have to work for things we want (jobs, things we want, ppl, etc) but happens wen we dont get it? wut happens after that? i dont quite understand. mm i needa clear my head.. to be continued...

=) i js walkd my brother to his bus stop. we were early so we talked bout the meaning of life and wut college he wants to go to after high school. sikkee na. but yea at his stop we talked bout w/e he wanted to talk bout and played rock paper scissors and all these other weird games he made up. it was fun.

i really should b cleaning, doing homework, doing my laundry, going to the bank, and all that good stuff. iuno y i do this to myself. i hold shit i gota do til last minute. i was doing fine! but iuno wut happened. my mom woke me up at 730. its now 930 n i havent done a thing. i have to do alla that plus go to the bank, get a haircut, and turn in this project that ws due las week. y do i wait so long?! well, jeff and them are going to tysons around 3ish he said. should i go? or should i just meet up with them when they're done so that i dont have to be rushing everything? OR just pick them up around 7 before we leave? we shall soon see.

dance! oh how i love thee. its basically become somethin i do on a regular. dont play ball anymore. still love playin but, iuno wher ima go wit dat. not sayin dat dance will take me newhere, but it does give me friends that i can relate to and ppl that i get along with. wen it came to ball everybody ws tryina act so hard n shit. i admit at one point i TRIED to b like that. wasnt me tho. with dance i can be myself and act how i want to w/o worryin bout bein judged. i hav found real friends that actually care for me n that will b there for me when i need em. even tho it hasnt been that long, in the passed months that ive been dancing, i really consider some ppl to be family. wit future shock, culture shock, full service, yfc, your mother, and now capital funk, i hav found places of comfort and release. but ive been dancin so much lately that i forgot wut is most important to me, my family and education.

ever since i started dance ive been in and out of the house like i pay rent. i saw my family every now and then, and on family occasions id skip dance. but its gotten to a point wher id rather skip the family stuff and just dance my ass off. even if its js a rehearsal. this isnt good! ive missed so much quality time with family, especially with kenny. iuno wut im doing. i realize wut im doing, but i cant seem to stop. ever since culture shock showcase in san diego, i have forgotten my priorities, and went bak to my old habits. last year i did the same thing, forgot bout school n fam n js danced. i promised myself a chang but iuno y i endd up here. whoever reads this please pray for me. even wit god i tend to forget hes here.

i shouldnt even b on this...i shall continue this when im FINISHED with my stuff. but for now, so long n farewell lol. tc gb pcccccc

hmm..las time i updated this thing wz october..aitez well..i guess ill update on wuts been goin on dese passed few months..

um..school..eh..could b better..a lot better..i didnt focus as much as i should have..i spent my energy on other things..like friends..ball..dance..js fun basically..i WENT to school..but for some reason as i sat there id just..do other things..like think bout shit or go online or something..to sum it all up im technically starting over next fall..im goin to use this summer as my "push back" into wher i need to be..get my shit straight..

um..my car..i miss my car..in the passed year ive had my car..ive had a total of 6 tickets..some speeding..seatbelt?..disobeying of a highway sign..incorrect lane change?..n one for uh..well..im not gona say..on top of that i js recently got into a car accident..i fell asleepp!..at the night of ecdc i didnt sleep the night bfor at all..n i had to b in dc by 8..so at the end of the day i pretty was out of energy..den me n my stupid self decided to stay out even longer..party..ihop..sober..didnt drink or nething..round 3am i decide to finally go home..i make it most of the way..the somehow i fall asleep..long story..basically i drove str8 over a ditch n blew both front tires n somehow managed to swirve around on the opposite side of traffic n finally hit a rail..so now..im carless..n seeing as how ma last ticket wz a wreckless..im bout to get my license suspended!!..so now..gota rely on other things..like metro..or finding rides from other ppl..if u kno me ud understand that im really not use to being picked up..haha

with bball..this is the first season wher i decidd not to participate in faba..first season EVER since faba started..i kno it doesnt seem like much but i use to kill to play a game..i guess i didnt hav time anymore..now i js ball in my free time which is never most of da time lol..still love it doe

i quit pf changs!it wz my first job ever..after over a year..kinda got tired of it..waking up having to iron ma shirt..coming in extra shifts as favors..not having my vacation requests accepted..coming home smelling like chinese food..gooin to school smellin like chinese food..gay managers..gay servers..js stupid pf changs..i quit after he took me off the schedule for missing a meeting..n js stopped showing up..im broke noww..after i quit i use to take my grandparents to work in mornings..but then eventually ma grandad got his car back n he started driving agen..so now living off very little..feels like im in high school agen..haha

few months ago i did a semiformal for mason..i loved it..met some new friends..saw old friends..n realized how much i liked dance..it took my mind off of things that needed to go away..sounds so movie-ish but it wz somewher wher i could js let go lol..afterwards started gettin into new things..like durin rehearsals i met kevin..he helpd choreograph some of masons stuff..he introduced me to a lot of things like future shock..for a few months i had the pleasure and the honor of dancin wit some very talented young ppl..i mean TALENTED..AND YOUNG..haha...den some friends pressured me into trying out for culture shock..i wasnt expecting to make it..but somehow i got in..so weirdd tho..few years back i use to dream bout being in culture shock as id watch videos or clips from some of their old performances..n now im part of a ver diverse group who all love dancing as much as i do..fs n cs r now basically my 2nd family away from home..also kevins group "your mother" and zachs "full service"..o ye n also wit yfc!!woop woop..we'r going to texas to compete at conference after winning a competition at precon in delaware..dance dance dance

wit fam..eh..of course we'll always hav our ups n downs..since oct ther hav been a lot of different situations wher..i didnt wana b home haha..but..now things r good..n hopefully da summer will fill in our gaps n make things better

some upcoming things..lehns pageant!lehns bday!philippines for a month!mae's bday!texas for conference!ny for ball?sheila bak for break!school!san diego for showcase!

more later..comments please..if u read all of dis ur cool